Jealousy...

It's such a nasty word...but the more I think on some recent events in my life.. It truly makes me wonder if I am just jealous at certain people and all of their happiness that surrounds them.  Marriage.. Engagements... New Kids.. (yep even that one). I know that I need to be happy with whom I am, before I can even think of being in a "truly bonded life with someone all to myself". Yeah, I think that I'm lost in life as I know it, I know there are things that I HAVE to do before I can even think about the largest commitment in life.

I'd love it if for once, something truly spectacular would happen. In the past 6 years, I have heart ache, joy for my friends, sadness of job losses but nothing that can truly make my heart skip a beat.

I know that I need to listen to the words of Cupcake Brown, “She talked about wanting to be a part of something, wanting to be desired, to be 'special', craving to be loved. She talked about experiencing the kind of loneliness so immense it could swallow you up. She called it 'loneliness that crowds couldn't cure'.”  Its not the exact quote.. but it will work, at least till I find the correct one.

But then I begin to wonder if there is someone right for me. Is there someone out there that can handle my quirks. I guess for now I shall wonder, who knows who might come knocking at my door.

Sometimes you feel like a nut... Sometimes you just need BLING

So here's to all the Lemonade makers who feel like a nut.. I bring you my nutty BLING. Well perhaps it's not nutty.. but it sure is PRUDY ;) This nut made some mistakes this past week, but I'm done crying over spilled milk. Life is life. Its full of ups and downs, and it is what you make of it. So this is one item that had caught my eye.. and now I'm in full mood to get down and dirty with some sweet Swarovski Bling!!! Love this, and it's truely a perfect present for anyone who just wants a little glitz, let me know if you want one.. I'll get you a price :D

 
They come in either SILVER or GOLD.. and I have Assorted colors to chose from. Pictured is Peridot with Pearled Crystal highlights.

Life as I know it....

So here's the deal-e-o! I obviously changed my last post. I have been informed what I said was "POT SHOTTING" them. Was not my intent. So I removed the "text of it all" and left my Blah feeling there. I'm in a way just looking at this as more Lemons to my Lemonade bucket. I have said my peace with said person, where she takes it is her choice. If I lose a friend over it, I'm sorry. I still will consider her a friend, like I still consider her best guy friend (my ex) a friend. Yeah I know I'm strange. But I guess you kinda have to be to live in this kinda world. Things are said, things are done, Its all up to the people doing/reading/saying/listening/and acting to take it with a bucket or a grain of salt.

So this is me still "Wishing her a Merry Christmas", may she find some great cooking to replace her anger. Perhaps some nice Lemon Meringue Pies?

Here's an image for her, something I was planning on painting for her soon. But that is her choice where to take our friendship. For now G'night world. This is me signing off of 4AM ramblings.